I prefer to be called Swylv online.
I have a husband of course and one son age 6.

In Dec 2004 I was researching why I don't tell my son there's a santa
and came upon some startling info regarding 12/25.

After 12/25/05 I happened upon xanga.com/anna and a whole new world
was opened up for me.

At this time in my life I was leaving mainstream churches that met on
sunday and meeting with a handful of people in a home church setting
on thursday nights.

Since then those that I knew at the regular old AG church have
labeled me as cultish and strange and the pastor even has made it a
point of pointing out to others that those in his congregation who do
not hold to church doctrine are being lured into cults and are
interpreting the Bible wrong.

in June 2007 I attended the local big baptist church and they have 2
sunday school classes on our Jewish Roots ... I started attending one
and really learned a lot. Since then I've also met with some of them
in one home for a bi-weekly HavDalah get together and I've been to
one of the local Messianic Congregations about 6 or so times now but
the people we get together with bi-weekly may be starting a Torah
Observant ministry soon and hopefully it will be closer to home as
the Messianic Congregation my son and I go to for Shul is a good 30
miles or so away and gas prices ain't pretty.

I am sad to admit my DH is not on board. I know many would say I
need to just submit and do the sunday and 12/25 and bunny day thing
but I know it's wrong for me and I just can't do it anymore. My DH
also freuently tells me that stay at home moms are freeloaders and
that he is not entirely happy in our marriage. He doesn't believe
the Bible was written for our time so traditional roles as laid out
in the Bible do not hold up for him this day. ( I did light heartedly
mention that if that were the case how come women still bear
children, if times have changed why don't men give birth LOL)) He's
told me before he was happy living apart from Jesus at this time but
since then says I can't judge him and say whether he is saved or not
((even though he admitted what he did)) He is constantly telling me I
am weird because I'm Jewish or a Jewish wanna-be. And he also
frequently lets me know he only attend the church he still does cuz
his momma goes there and some of his buds.

He messes with my emotions saying things like if we were on the same
page with this religion stuff then we'd probably have more children
as he knows this has been my prayer since June 2002 that my son could
have a sibling(s). And then the next time he messes with them he
says things like it's a good thing we don't have anymore children
because we can't agree.

All these things leave me in tears many a time.

I'm very interested in learning with others on how we go about living
the often quoted verses for why we home educate found in Deuteronomy
chapter 6. I especially need some guidance because I'm a mom, who
had no brothers, raising a boy and I know I can learn from others
who've BTDT.

Hopefully I'm not seen as that crazy lady that everyone wants to
steer clear of now. Not many people in my in person life know all
this about me. When people ask "how are you?" no one really wants to
hear it all, they expect pat answers and as the saying goes, "Can't
complain, no one wants to hear it anyhow"

Swylv whose source of joy comes first and foremost from Yeshua and then my son

struggling with at least going to Dh's church tonight for PM service
since bunny season is over. but again I know how others view me and
why would I want to go thru that torture.

I wrestled with posting this.

#1 it's Shabbat
#2 I'm not sure I'm saying it right and don't want it to me mistaken

However YHVH pressed upon me to post it anyway so here it is.


Please google the word fitna ... I don't know how long it will be available ... Rusty Humphrey has it at his website as well

watch the 15 minute brutally true video WITHOUT your children near by - until you've previewed it and then after that it's your decision if you want them to see it

one thing I'll let you know...the 3.5 year old disturbed me ... we don't teach our children to hate people based on race or religion or even gender preference. We teach them that we were once sinners as well until Yeshua atoned for our sins. We don't teach our kids that we are superior and everyone who doesn't worship/believe like us deserves death. Rather we teach to love their neighbors and be a salt and light to lead them to Yeshua.

We watched this film tonight after Shul ((no children were in the room))

Rabbi said he'd like to take it to the "moderates" in our area and ask which side they are on. Course they may not fess up and/or kill him for being so blunt. He informed us that our metro area is planned to be a major mega center for *sl*m and they are already infiltrating our area because they are getting on the housing boards and securing whole rental complexes as homes to bring their relatives and other radical followers over here.

It's sad to see the hatred against freedom they have ... but I wonder do they really hate it or is it just because they've been brainwashed from birth?

And let me just state that I do not dislike m*sl*ms ... I know they are not all extreme just as I hope they know all Americans are not void of morals as hollywood and the media portrays.

It is sad that we can't embrace our similarities and also be allowed to express our beliefs as long as it doesn't involve killing someone just because they don't believe as you do.

As of right now we have the freedom of religion and speech here ... will we always? Can others see the rightness in this?

as the saying goes:
"I may not agree with what you are saying, but I will fight beside you for your right to say it"

Also our freedoms mean we are also responsible for our actions and we can't violate someone else's freedom or rights because there are consequences.

again this is all just really sad and disturbing.

There's a song so fitting Save Your People but I can't find lyrics or video or artist or not even sure that's the title

also a reading:

And I Said Nothing

When the Nazis arrested the Communists,
I said nothing; after all, I was not a Communist.
When they locked up the Social Democrats,
I said nothing; after all, I was not a Social Democrat.
When they arrested the trade unionists,
I said nothing; after all, I was not a trade unionist.
Then they killed the Jews,
and I did not speak out—because I was not a Jew;
Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak out for me.
-- Pastor Martin Niemoller, 1945

--Public schools are destroying the faith of Christian children and the pulpits are silent.

--Legislation is introduced to remove the rights of parents and the pulpits are silent.

--Children are taught they came from apes and the pulpits are silent.

--Millions of children are “medicated” to control their behavior and the pulpits are silent.

--Gambling is promoted to pay for schools and the pulpit is silent.

--Precious babies are being murdered in the womb and the pulpits are silent.

--Planned Parenthood kills babies with our tax dollars and the pulpits are silent.

--Judges make laws and the pulpits are silent.

--Tolerance trumps Truth and the pulpits are silent.

--Sodomy is granted legal protection and the pulpits are silent.

--The institution of marriage is crumbling and the pulpits are silent.

--Obama says the Sermon on the Mount justifies gay marriage and the pulpits are silent.

--Government has replaced God as defender and provider and the pulpits are silent.

--Faith-based initiatives invite the government into the Church and the pulpits are silent.

--The IRS muzzles the voice of the Church and the pulpits are silent.

--Taxes are levied to do the work of the Church and the pulpits are silent.

--The Church locks arms with compassionate-conservativism and the pulpits are silent.

--Children’s service agencies separate family members and the pulpits are silent.

--Self-help books replace the Bible and the pulpits are silent.

--A Purpose Driven Life is elevated above dying to self and the pulpits are silent.

--G.W. Bush says Christians and Muslims worship the same God and the pulpits are silent.

--The Constitution is ignored and the pulpits are silent.

--Pagans pray to open a session of Congress and the pulpits are silent.

--Our elected officials lie and steal and the pulpits are silent.

--Private property is stolen by government and the pulpits are silent.

--Mother Earth is protected more than Father God is defended and the pulpits are silent.

--Illegal aliens over-run our borders and the pulpits are silent.

--The entertainment industry celebrates debauchery and the pulpits are silent.

Recent DVD's watched:

they are good..I mean sure some things get left out and personal opinion on Joseph .. .too much nudity and such but guess that was the way of portraying Egyptian culture at that time

Current books:

Ponderings:

When pilate washed his hands was he saying I'm not responsible or was he insulting the Hebrews by using their hand washing custom?

Did anyone else watch this?

I saw a few reruns as a child but over the past year my family has been checking these out from the library and really got into them.

Spoiler below...do not read on if you haven't seen them and plan to...you've been warned

the way it ended though

if Al and Beth stayed together and Al's life was happy, chances are he never met Sam so he is not the hologram/help to Sam yet Sam is still jumping around in time so that means some other person must be connected to him holographically ....

It'd be cool if they'd bring a movie or something back to catch up on Sam's leaps.

ok that's the "geek" in me ...but I don't really view QL or quanalee as DS called it as a geeky show.

I posed the following  last week on a forum labeled Sh'ma Y'Israel

What say you? Is 6th day at sunset the real 6th day at sunset? My DH says days have been changed throughout history.

Are we free to choose which day we regard/keep as Sabbath? I get that at the bottom of page 450 in Fam Guide to Bib-Days book .... when I was searching for proof that the Sabbath has always been the 7th day and that is the day the 4th commandment is referring to ... not something that says each one can decide ... I mean in that case who cares if we say the 1st day has now become the Sabbath or how about the 4th day, it's a good day for me to halt everything....?

am I making any sense? I'm a bit flustered at the moment.

And after a week I only received a lame reply for DH and I to pray about which day we want to keep as Sabbath and how we want to celebrate it.

Well my DH is of the sun day mindset ... I can't do that anymore knowing it's wrong and I'm sick and tired of hearing people say we can choose our own days to celebrate and we can interpret the Scriptures any old way we see fit .... I'm not sure that is the wisest decision.

the neighbor sounded mad this AM ... PRAY for me....Please

she'll probably be knocking on my door later today ... how can she get upset at me over the 30mph wind we had yesterday and our parking spaces are like sardines in a can tight.

I'm worried about how much $$$ she's going to demand ... and I don't necessarily want my insurance rate to go higher for a weather induced blunder...and I have a mark on a car door of mine from her car and I've never complained  .....

UpDaTe: She came home and knocked on my door right away.  She said her sweetheart could get the paint off and she had some buddies that may be able to get the dent out...we'll just have to wait and see.  She and I both commented that we both have noticed burgundy/white paint on our back doors from the kiddos and I'm sure that if it was just the door that hit her car it would have been no biggie but it hit her car with 30mph wind force and that is what caused the damage.  She knows I didn't purposely do it.  So thank you YHVH and thank you to those who prayed.  I'm praying her buddies can fix it and it will all be ok.  And my DH decided to give me a lesson on how I need to hold my door with 2 hands not just one when trying to squeeze out the door with an armload of items....yeah thanks dear. 

The wind blew my vehicle door open as I was trying to get out and smacked the car beside me.  It's my neighbor's car.  I'm awaiting what she'll say, as she's not home yet.  Prayer please

my DH is complaining because some guy at works 5 year old can read and do math and yet our son has to think to answer 3+3 and says he doesn't know what a plus sign is.  DH says our DS should get 50 minutes a day in each subject and be smarter than the other kids....my take is I don't want to burden him with that much school work and cause him to hate school work in the long run and hello there are 12 years of this stuff.

then DH way layed me about saturday not being the Sabbath because people all thru time have been changing the days how do we know it's the real 7th day.  and when he was a kid they went to a 2 hour service, lunch at church then hours of prayer/singing followed by another service that is really keeping the whole Sabbath and I said Sabbath keeping does not mean being in church all day and I am not under constantine's rule and am not catholic and DH retailiated with "you're not Jewish either" so I said "I've been grafted in"

well time to review Family Guide to the Biblical Holidays, maybe it will have something in there.